Ready for God

Ready for God

“I wasn’t ready yet for church, but I was ready for God. And I’ve always believed that the ocean is one of the surest places to find Him.“- Shauna Niequist, "Cold Tangerines” . I did find my way back to church. And I’m so glad I did. At some point you must go deeper than [...]

Spin Cycle

Spin Cycle

The smell of Gain and dryer sheets is so thick I can feel it in my pores. A fan spins in rhythm with the massive dryers. l think of all the places I’ve watched my clothes spin. There was the laundry room in my dormitory building where I alternated between studying textbooks and the pages [...]

Allez Les Bleus

It was the summer of 1998. I was in Paris. Eleven years old and completely overwhelmed by voices loudly singing anthems and popular futbol chants. Faces painted in primary colors. Down the street they went arm-in-arm. Through the night I would hear a cacophony of riotous celebration and foreign insults hurled through the air in [...]

When Summer Comes to Play

Sipping chicory tea under a string of lights; I’m reflecting on time spent with my little Isaiah. Today, his giggles ran through the air as he hid in plain sight and waited for me to find him. I scooped him up, kissed his cheeks, and whispered in his ears. “Here you go. I’ll put you [...]

A Nearly Invisible Battle

A Nearly Invisible Battle

Years ago, in the midst of a dark chapter, when I was stuck in bed and stuck in life... stuck in the decisions I had made... stuck in the pain I was feeling... I watched hours and hours of “No Reservations”. Episode after episode...I would even leave it playing through the night so the room [...]

Pain which cannot forget

“My favorite poet was Aeschylus. He wrote: ‘In our sleep, pain which cannot forget falls drop by drop upon the heart until, in our own despair, against our will, comes wisdom through the awful grace of God.' What we need in the United States is not division; what we need in the United States is [...]

The seed provided.

Something sprouted up in my tiny garden that I didn’t recognize. It didn’t look like any of the plants growing around it. I couldn’t identify it by it's immature leaves. I hadn’t planted in that particular spot so I was confused. It grew a little more and seemed like it was starting to vine. Then [...]